berryhealthy:

sleek & slender abs with karena! repeat 3 times

tipsy warm up - standing with dumbbells to your side, rock back and forth keeping your hips stationary, activating the core muscles warming them up for your workout.
knee up crossover - standing with one hand pressed above you, and the other one to your side (dumbbells in hand) twist to one side, lifting that knee up while bringing your elbow down to meet in front of you. return to standing and repeat.
cat crunch - in a plank position, begin with arching your back and pulling your knee towards your face while contracting your abs. fully extend your leg back, using both your abs and your low back moving as slowly as possible.
cinch it - in a plank position slowly rotate your hips side to side while keeping your shoulders in line above your elbows on the mat. be sure to touch your hip on the ground before changing direction!
plank kicks - hold a plank position for a 5 count, then lift one leg slightly up and hold for 5, kick it out to your side and hold for 5, then bring it back in and hold for 5 before dropping it back down to the ground. repeat for each side.
tabletop crunch - a 3 part crunch move, begin on your back with your legs in tabletop position. with your dumbbell in your hands, crunch up and place the dumbbell on top of your shins being careful not to let it fall. slowly lay back down before crunching back up to take the dumbbell and lay back down extending your legs straight out in the air!
basic crunches - on your back, lift your shoulders off the ground by contracting your core.
the butterfly - sitting up balancing on your bum, slowly flutter your legs, bringing one heel to the ground while the other is lifted up to eye level and alternate!

You don’t need a gym membership to workout

(via s3raaa)

i understand it, but at the same time, i dont…

i feel unappreciated, unloved, unimportant (though i know i shouldn’t feel that way because i know that i am appreciated, loved, and important, BUT somehow…i feel this way)
slowly the little things begin to bother me. at first, i just noticed it, then kept noticing it until it began to poked me with annoyance. 

i just want to drop everything and crawl back into my bubble, not giving a care in the world what happens to the dropped relationships, but just work on my complex mental, emotional, physical state that i am in right now.

this doesnt have to make sense to you…because it’s not for you

sweetdreamorbeautifulnightmare:

Thank the Lord for whoever made this!!!!

Amazing…enough said

(Source: iraffiruse, via eshine27)

i am back to the state of panic…trying to clean up the mess i made because of my laziness and lack of preparation(?) i thought i did everything right and i thought it was all good…and now i’m back to trying to fix the problem and hoping for the best.

why must i always be in this situation? did i do something wrong? was i too calm? why is this repeating all the time (each time being more difficult)

i’m so frustrated (90% at myself, 10% at the system) and i just want to drop everything and give up…

im sure this is another lesson i must learn, another mistake i must recognize…i need to trust God…even now…that everything will work itself out.  i need to trust Him that He will solve this for me and give me peace.

If only reading came this easy to me -.-

(via s3raaa)

I keep making mistakes, over and over again. No matter how hard I try to do better, to learn from the past, or to change, it keeps haunting me with disappointment. How do I change myself? How do I stop hurting those around me? It’s frustrating, so frustrating to see myself in this position. I feel pathetic and useless.

And yes, now the thought comes up that when people read this and say, “chin up. It’s going to be fine. God will take care of it.” it’s easier to say than to have to trust those words deeply within. Oh don’t get me wrong. I know God will get me through this. I know how awesome he is and how he works. I’ve witnessed it. But in this time, i just want to vent and be frustrated. I am allowed to be frustrated. I don’t have to be all “grace and mercy came down and I’m all fine and dandy. Nothing can hurt me” all the time. I am allowed negative feelings and I hate that people will read this and judge and think, “ooh, I’m worried about her…she needs Jesus” like I’m some poor child who hasn’t found Christ. I am a Christian and I am saved. No doubt about it. But i also think that it is normal for ppl to feel emotion and really feel them without the worry of feeling judged.

I make mistakes but Christ washed it away with my other closetful of more mistakes, and will keep on washing them away. But for now, I’m frustrated. Not at God or the world, but at myself…just for now.

Vent complete…

its frustrating to know that lack of anything is the problem.  we think too much of anything is bad, but the scarcity of the same can be worse. it can be 1% of it or it can be 99% of it, but its still somehow lacking.  of course im not talking about evil (i think its evident that too much of evil is much worse than no evil) but trust, faith, hope, and the actions that require so much of ourselves have me exhausted.

oh God, help my unbelief…

regrets…lots of regrets

that time when you wonder why you’re so angry at almost everything and everyone…

i am amazed at how my mother raised me…and can’t imagine who in the world will love me like she did and take all the crap i will give him (im sure i’ll have to deal with some too but…)

whoever you are…thanks.

you make me feel i frequently feel that…

i will never be good enough

i will always be a disappointment

i will always be a failure

i will always bring you down, and no matter what i do, you will never be satisfied

for all that i have done, you will never forget and have this broken image of me

i will never be the precious little girl you thought me to be

i will never be the same in your eyes

i will never be good enough

but somehow, no matter how frustrated or bitter i am at you, i have this longing to run back into your arms and let all my worries flow out into tears.  i long to tell you how much i love you and to let you know that i’m not mad, that i can never hate you, and that everything’s okay now.  no matter how stressed or angry i may be, rest assured, i will always love you.